Thanks for all the positive messages -- I really appreciate them. I am feeling better today but "better" is relative. I cried privately about 8 times today. That is more times than I have cried in the last 5 years!

I have an appointment with a family doctor tomorrow. I don't want to be on meds for the rest of my life... that is my biggest fear about the appoitnment. I'll write back tomorrow after my appointment.

Thanks to everyone again.