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Originally Posted by iScottM
I'm just curious (it's not clear from your post): have you tried expressing your concerns to your T? From the beginning of your post it sounded like you got some relief from speaking with her.
I also have BPD/c-PTSD (and dissociation) and a lot of time I feel like my T seems more interested in my wife and kids than in me. It seems like he is always swinging our talks around to how it relates to my family. When I mention that I am not happy with my wife, he seems to take her side. Any ways, I asked him about this and was satisfied with his response and continue to see him because, outside of this, I like the direction things have gone in. That is why I ask if you have discussed how you feel with your T.
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Thanks for your suggestion. I appreciate it. I did talk to her after the phone call incident, I wrote an angry email to her and we did talk about it and she assured me that her feelings for me hadn't changed and she wasn't taking sides. But again and again I feel, like you, that she is more interested in my husband than me. It's as if she has this idea that because I have BPD, I must always be wrong or reading things wrong, misinterpreting things. I sometimes think she thinks I'm more ill than I actually am and puts everything down to BPD. I'm glad that you got a good response from your T when you asked about it. It gives me hope that there may be a way through this. It's probably worth a try but I am so scared of opening a can of worms and then finishing therapy with her (after 7 years) on bad terms. It's a tough one.