The only important "maybe" is "maybe" if the ADULTS in your life had acted like responsible adults, EVEN if you made a mistake, they would have been there, as they should have been there, to keep it from traumatizing you so much- to support you instead of abandon you, to understand you instead of criticize you.

P.S. If you were too ashamed of a lie, which I don't think is a fair assessment of the entire difficult situation, but even still, if that was all it was... don't you think it's concerning you'd go to such lengths to avoid your parents? Solid, loving, stable parents wouldn't have you in such fear of a mistake... or they'd be able to address it in a healthy way if you had a disproportionate fear.