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Originally Posted by Leah123
Another thing to consider is everything that led to that moment, moments that break families like that don't happen in isolation, it's about the environment. I can only imagine, based on incidents you've shared here, plus that very powerful rejection, that it's not just about forgiving your mom for saying something stupid in an argument. I think you know what happened, during that day and prior, was more serious than just heated words, just one bad day....
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I know, that's how I feel - I feel like it was very serious and I was very anxious and afraid. But then I wonder if I'm just retrospectively interpreting those events/feelings in light of what I want to believe, and maybe those incidents (like that incident with the Minnie Mouse that is so, so clear and vivid in my head) never actually happened and I just made them up and then convinced myself they were true. Memory isn't like a video camera; everything you think you know is biased in some way or another.
Maybe I just feel like if I was in any pain at all, it was my own fault, and I don't deserve all the empathy and comfort I get from people I tell this story to, or from my T, or from folks on PC...