Ironically, I feel like it is so strange that we are encouraged by pros like Brene Brown to be vulnerable, and yet we cannot even see each other. Maybe the internet is not the most ideal way to heal the mind, heart, and loneliness of my life, however, I am relying on it as a tool. Ted Talks are also helpful. Still, I feel like my life is going to waste! My goal is to find the tools, support, love, and to be courageous enough to do something about my mental health as it relates to family, unemployment etc. I have researched so man different avenues to find a way out of this hole, and it does feel like a hole! I think that art is one way, writing helps me too. I am just feeling like I have so much to offer the world and yet, I cannot seem to get a job, I feel guilty about relying on my family and not being able to get my act together. I think that I have to talk to my family about the support I need, but they are sick of hearing it! I feel like I am at my witsend.