I'm glad that you are making an effort to go see the doctor. I am struggling with that myself right now. It shows that you want to get better no matter how you are suffering. You should be proud of yourself, even if it doesn't feel like much. Even at your weakest, you are still strong because you are surviving... even when the pain feels like you are withering and dying.

Sometimes, if you let them know you are struggling when you are making the dr's appt.. the nurses will get you in early to help do the paper work for you. It isn't much, but sometimes starting the process is the hardest part.