i do that all the time. It bothers me alot when people don't understand that and don't understand how I do that. I'm sane now for how long idk. I found out it's medical the dopamine levels caused my medical issues. I do believe now parkinson's disease is definitely apart of this. I already been told bout my dopamine levels over and over agin. I have a movement disorder now and being checked for other things. I found this out it's so easy to think about after reading and knowing so much over many years and people don't understand it's a disease of my body killing itself with the good chemical I went unconscious when I smoked weed too much thc converting to dopamine in my brain short circuited the functions causing me to go blind and blackout in a coma. It's obvious now that this can kill. I know cause it almost happened and it's getting worse my back is always in pain my shoulders and muscles are always stiff and life is very painful to do alot of things. I don't make it a crutch they call me the negative nancy when they don't want to help or understand to help they rather talk to me down and expect me to get better tomorrow when they are too ignorant in stupid ******** and not care to learn what's going on. My parents doctors and friends don't take it seriously. I almost to the point. I want to file a lawsuit towards my lack of care and the poor quality I got from this. They don't care unless I am dead which I've seen that behavior where people suddenly care bout someone who kills themself or dies in some way tragically at that moment, but never showed it before this only applies to people who don't know and choose ignorance which in my case it's everyone. I want to say I can do it. I do say it, it's everyone else treating me like I can't do anything, but tell me to get up. This is led to me being in very bad situations and nearly fatal accidents because of that neglegance I want to file a lawsuit to the medical people. They blow me off didn't compensate or nothing they just rob me blind while my body deteriorates. I a experiencing it everyday with this crap. I had it, I don't know what to do, because even if I did some things all by myself I have to rely on some people for help which I don't have options with that. So I don't know if I have to convince people or die. Idk which one. I just want to be told I can runaway and no one can come after me no cops no federal agents no friends no parents. I can just go and do things alone somewhere else. I've done much better alone than with people.