hi I was first anorexic and than bulimic..i have abuse laxatives for many years.. I can not go to the bathroom at all without them because I have mess up my system my hair is severly thin and I have bald spots my skin has aged so much.. the constant dehydration will age you. you might not see it right now. but believe me it will your body can only take so much.. I have been in the icu several times. I have neroupathy on my left side. I have lost three friends to bulimia. all took laxatives. I am not trying to scare you. I want you to be afraid.. its your life.. what you do now will affect what your future.. I am on medication now for my bulimia. it has slowed the laxative abuse down a lot.. I know the feeling of being empty.. it can be overwhelming , I do something after I eat now.. go out. walk . call a friend, I put my laxatives someplace my family will see me taking them.. very hard for me to take them than.. I get on the computer. I write the feeling down on paper the feeling of feeling full and how angry and overwhemiing.. and sometimes I cry.. emotional release, helps.. you need to see your medical dr and therapist and a psychiatrist to help you maybe even go inpt for a little bit let them take control. so you can work on yourself.. good luck