I wish there was something I could say to help, but I feel exactly the same way. I fear my T will one day have ppl waiting for me and lock me up. I believe she knows I don't like to feel powerless but I get really agitated and go off. I am no threat to her she is an innocent. But to put me in a position where I am trapped and I don't know what would happen other than I will never go without resistance, I will die before anyone has a chance to take away my freedom.