I have had depression for 20yrs. now. Tried every antidepressant was like a rollor coaster got side effects had to get weaned off got sick again, it was just horrible. Finally was put on a fairly new one called pristq it worked, i felt so good did not know that feeling. Well guess what either i need a higher dose or it stopped working already. I am back in the deep dark hole, do not want to do anything. Hate everything hate my life, my house, feel like i cannot go on. I have been in the hospital for this about 20 times. Nothing means anything to me cannot find any joy in anything. I am afraid to go back to the doc because i do not want to have to go to the hospital again. I am trying to fight this by myself & my faith. I pray every night & believe god will help me. Just had to get this off my shoulders as i have no one else to talk with.