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Originally Posted by Mustkeepjob32
Wow,
I just checked and have seen all your great responses to my post and I'm so grateful! Hearing that you guys feel the same away and battle the same issue is very comforting.
My parents have offered that I go home with them for a while and while that may be the best option, I know that soon I'll feel like getting a job and then everyone will be waiting for me to fail again.
I know a little bit about Mindfulness but not much; I will further look into it. I know I need to take baby steps on days I need to go to work. Sometimes I just worry I'm so lazy that I don't go to work. I almost believe that except then why does this whole thing cause me such misery?
I see these young people at my work and while I don't know their personal situations, I am amazed that they are able to go to work all the time (I envy them).
Thanks again all for your thoughtful replies!
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Bless you, I had the same problem for all the years I was working until I was medically retired at age 43 (I'm now 56).
My advice is to do as much work on 'self awareness' as possible. When we are afraid we project that into our future, much better to visualise yourself as coping with whatever situations that arise. See yourself full of confidence instead of anxiety, see your own face with a smile on it instead of a frown, moving through the days with ease. Get into the feeling and remember what it felt like on a particularly good day you had in the past, carry that with you. What you believe becomes your reality...truly!!!
Since you are already open to mindfulness I recommend 'The Secret' by Elaine N Aron. There's a short film on YouTube that covers the basics, or you can buy the full version. Always remember that the 'secret' is to be grateful for what you DO have. Start with the small things and work up to feeling how lucky you are to have a job, family and friends who support you, etc etc. I hope this helps and I am willing to support you from afar if you need it. I check in on here frequently.
