Hi, I sue can relate except I'm 15 years older. Being on Psych Central has been good to me. Although I don't answer every post I read, I try posting to those that resemble me. You don't say whether you have a therapist or not. I'm always an advocate for someone I can dump my problems and not feel guilty. Perhaps talking to someone will help you sort your feelings. Welcome and good luck! Keep us posted regarding your progress.