It's always tough when you feel like you can't talk to family. But please know that we are always here to listen (although don't let that stop you from reaching out for support from your family and friends. That is what they are there for)

The internet might not always be the best tool since you can't always feel the closeness of other people but sometimes I find it truly encouraging that there are many other people who feel the exact same way and still fight. It gives me hope that if so many other people are looking for the light, it must exist somewhere out there.

I feel like, while videos and articles are always great to read, they don't always stay with us more than a few days (which is why I have a hard time reading self-help books because sometimes motivating yourself to help yourself is the most difficult part). Self-improvement is a slow, slow, slooooow process and often time we don't see the difference until we look back after it's been a year or sometimes longer. So don't give up As long as your trying, there will be a way. Someone once said that many more people could become famous inventors if only they tried one more time. A failed experiment is never a failure because you always learn something from it.

Best of luck!