((((freewill)))) I do understand and I think we are very close to how we think... I was where you are, and sometimes fall back into it...

But you are still here. God promises that nothing He gives us to endure is UNendurable... I'm still not where I can thank God for what I've been through, what I go through daily to live, but I am almost to a point of allowance?

I do not see depression any differently than I see, say a usual example, diabetes. We are humans and we suffer.

One of MY own quotes and standbys is "It isn't WHAT we go through, but HOW we go through it." This shows our level of faith.

Knowing that God is omnicient, omnipresent, omnipotent... gives me strength alone.

I hope your depression lifts some soon ((((freewill)))