I know, i do have this inner conflict, im constantly battling myself, i still havent let go of my old t, im kinda slowly giving her a little bit of a way in ( the new t) as she has been very attuned to me. I just have this constant battle, first i have to let go of the fear of the fact that, she is not just going to leave like the rest, I am afraid to open up more, become vulnerable, and then come to the office and have her say, sweepy i took another job somewhere else. We have spoken about this, and she reassured me that wont happen, but guess what, that was reassureed to me twice over.