My mind is always restless.
I know it is difficult to answer a question from a stranger, but I don’t have any other option.
I have an important exam coming after 6 months, and I have been preparing at home. Initially it was good, but now I find it very difficult to follow. I know my life depends up on it, and as a guy, I must act maturely. Still, this happens I would procrastinate, act lazy and succumb to my emotions. I fear I will fear if I go like this. Question of friends doesn’t exist because my experience with people has been horrible.
I am alone and I accept it. It was my choice. I am not at all indulging in other people’s lives and I expect the same from them. But my mind wanders and I don’t know what will happen to me. I am fantasizing too much, I use internet too much, and like a horse without reins I feel I am going astray.
I shouldn’t ask like this because at this age all of my pals are having families.(I am 26 now).My emotions are making a coup d’état on my entire personality. I hate people now, I like being negative, I like being like a cloud, floating aimlessly. I have an aim but I cannot work for that. I know I have to study but I cannot do that. I am getting bored so easily. My mind is attached to things giving instant pleasure. If you ask for being with my girl friend, I don’t have one. I tried meditation, but no effect. I cannot ask my parents for going to a therapist because they won’t understand.
How do you follow your dreams while not pulling the legs of your own life?