HI everyone

I will give you a little history of myself, to start. As long as I can remember I hated change and was and still really bad at dealing with it. I have lost many opportunities in life due to this. I would avoid the situation rather than face the feelings I know that the change would bring.

Tomorrow I start a new job, but instead of being happy with more pay and better conditions, I just want to go back to my old job. The problem is that my old job will be Bankrupt and will shut it's doors Tuesday, and the recieving company will begin to sell the assets. I always feel nervous, and sad when I have to start a new job, I spend the first months constantly thinking about my old job and the friends I made there, and only wish I could go backwards.
I have done this before and every time I start a new job the same feelings come out, and they do subside after a long while, but I wish that I could handle these changes better.