Right now I am out of the country for 3 months, so I am on a break. She told me to email if I needed her, and she has not been good at all about getting back to me. I've tried not going for awhile, canceling sessions, taking a break, but I always end up being weak and returning. Is that what happens to you? I just can't seem to live without her, but then I get so angry about her having so much power over my emotions and think I might be better off without therapy. If I ever manage to leave therapy, I'm not going back. The same thing will just happen with another therapist. It happened with my first therapist. She had to terminate because she was finishing an internship. I was DEVASTATED. I don't want to go there again.

Thanks so much everyone for your support and thoughts about this!