I almost forgot, jogged my memory writing about cutting back on therapy this morning- I think I am through the most severe of the dissociation and suicidal ideations that emerged talking about the worst of the trauma initially. I haven't felt that bad in... probably... gosh, maybe as much as six months... that must be some progress... to get through the horror to where when I talk about it, I haven't wanted to kill myself or escape so much. (Note to self, watch the stress levels to avoid that place again.)