Thanks Leah I wasn't really expecting any replies, it was more of a 'rant' .. but i really do appreciate your comfort! Yes your right these are normal feelings - Reminding myself about compassion for myself is defiantly needed however selfish I may think that feels.

Have you mentioned these fears to your therapist?

I guess not we have probably touched on them indirectly. Probably something I should bring up..but i just don't want it to be 'something' else to add to my problems..

We've touched on transference as i've expressed my 'scaredness' of leaving T.. but as with above we're working on other stuff which will actually help with that - anyway I think T knows i'd probs feel really uncomfortable talking about it as I tend to write down anything like that!

Have you considered trying to counteract them by doing things to sooth them yourself?

I do the whole duvet and hot choc thing too!!

Keep strong too x