Sky, tellybox and fuzzy...

thank you for your comments. Sky, you are right, the feelings i have for Laura are unique due to the situation...i know i will never feel that for anyone ever again, and i can deal with that. tellybox, im sorry your partner finished the relationship. it really does feel so painful when something like this happens, and it certainy adds insult to injury when they become very "close" to a best friend of theirs. but listen, tellybox, if you need someone to talk to about it all, i am more than happy to help...just let me know if theres anything i can do ok. Fuzzy, i am planning on treading very carefully. as i feel right now, im seeing if she texts me to arrange something and if she does i may well tell her i dont want to, but i wil only do that if she texts me. if i dont hear from her - which is what im expecting - then i can finally move on and forget her as much as possible. the way i feel for is so painful yet it is so warm and refreshing, and what with my current plans for my life, i cant afford to put myself in this emotional minefield, not now...i have too much to lose this time. i will most certainly tread careful. BUT, saying that, i also want to meet her to tell her face-to-face exactly what the last few years have been like and what impact she has had on me. one and for all. i am glad i wont hear from her this week as it gives me a little time to work out whether i want to meet with her or not, IF she texts me i will act upon how i feel at the time, and that could be one of two things - i meet up with her or i dont. im keen on either of those things.

i am struggling to walk away from this so much. i know how rare and powerful love can be, i feel drawn to her, and i kind of feel we should be together...which is the extreme end of the scale. saying that, i dont want to be in a relationship with her as i cant deal witht he heartache again. not from her. if it was any other person, any other situation, things would be different, but this is so different. so unique. i think its a case of: i love her enough to let go and walk away.

thank you all for your support. i guess in the next few weeks i may need you more than i anticipated, so its a comfort to know you are here for me.

simon