I don't think that I'm experiencing this quite as some of you are. My T has never given me any reason to fear that she would take away my freedom or other such things, and I really have no reason to be suspicious of her. Now, after reading several of these posts, it seems that I am more pushing her away by making her figure seem more untrustworthy, simply because I have put a lot of trust in her and that is scaring me. Telling her what I did put me in a very vulnerable position, and I think that Scott is right, I should talk with her about how I'm feeling and let her know that I'm looking for excuses to take a step back. Perhaps with this information we can look together at how to push past this and understand how to feel safe and vulnerable at the same time. She is a good person and a wonderful T, she deserves much more than my suspicion and doubt. Like I said previously, I'm so grateful for all of the hard work that she has put into helping me through this. Thank you guys for your comments, it's helped me sort it out a bit better.