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Feb 23, 2014, 07:17 PM
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Member Since: Oct 2013
Location: loranger la.
Posts: 66
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Originally Posted by ClemFan
I tried to attempt suicide on the 6th of this mth. I have been home for a week now and I am still having trouble dealing with what I tried to do. Every now and then it hits me and I have a meltdown. Tonight was really bad. I'm still detoxing off of pain meds and hurting. I was in the bed with my wife watching TV and a movie came on about some who killed themselves. The parent left was having to tell their children what happened. I really broke down and lost it. The thought of my wife having to tell my kids that daddy is gone was more than I could take. My wife held me till it passed. I hate feeling like this!
Clemfan
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i am so sorry about how you are feeling.i do wish that i could tell you that the feelings of guilt will pass.they may never go away to be truthful.i have tried several attempts.was not my time.and hasnt happened since 1996.doesnt mean i dont think of it.and detoxing off off pain meds now! along with this? i really dont know what to say..except.you seem to have the good sense to think of what ur family would go through.sometimes i just need that in my head.so badly.so i will be okay.i dont have to tell u that u are dealing with alot now.you know this.they say"oneday at at time".sometimes.it is "one moment at a time"if u need to talk.alot of people on here that have been so kind to me.if u need my help.please do not hesitate.pam 
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