Hello all, and thank you for reading. Now, I may not have did the most in depth search, but I'm going to ask you all about a topic that I haven't seen much of on this section-- Asexuality.

By Asexuality, I do not mean reproducing without a partner. What I mean is the refraining from relationships or sex. I am in a really strange situation. I both do, and don't, want to be asexual.

I am not all that right in the head, and combined with my libido, I have a strange desire for females currently. However, I am socially inept (albeit, not to the degree of some of my friends, but I digress.)

In short, I've never been successful with people. I am heavily disliked for the opposite gender for a multitude of reasons (lack of intelligence, lack of social skills, unattractive, socially inept, shy, etc...)

Despite my overbearing stance against misanthropy, I am finding myself wishing to distance myself from others every day. In some ways, humans are beautiful, intelligent, fascinating creatures.

However, in other ways, humans can be disgusting, mentally inept, and terrible creatures. Though, don't think I dislikes humans for one second-- I would argue humans are my favorite animals, honestly.

And, to be honest, my failings with relationships has led me to disdain others and the ideas of relationships. It hurts me to know the happiness others derive from a situation in which I cannot obtain.

Though, sometimes, when I contemplate the idea of withdrawing from it all, and secluding myself, I find a bit of comfort. Though, something is always yearning inside of me to seek the companionship of others, even when it is harmful to my well-being.

I'd like to know what you all think. I'd like to thank you for reading, and have a good day.