Thank you for the replies.

I'm seeing a new psychiatrist who seems like she might be able to help, but I've only seen her once and she's really far from my house so I can't see her often. She has said similar things that you have, that she doesn't diagnose until she's sure and that it just can't happen with so few appointments, and that sometimes there is no perfect diagnosis.

I do search for therapists by symptoms as well, but the problem with that is that my main symptoms are dissociative, and no one knows what to do with that around here either. I've gone in to a lot of different therapists and talked until I was blue in the face about what I was struggling with that week and the only real response I'd get was either curiosity or bewilderment. They were sympathetic but it wasn't helpful at all to be told over and over "that's so weird, I've never heard of that." Even the therapists who listed 'dissociative disorders' under things they treated had no clue.

@skies- there is one psychoanalyst on the list in my area, I'll keep them in mind for sure. Thank you!