Just saw robocop...wow it was mildly triggering....spoilers ahead...so they save his life but then they sort of selectively edit his brain and finally they actually lower his dopamine so he no longer feels emotion. It really made me think about the way I was treated I mean yes the docs probably saved my life but they didn't hesitate to block my emotions to accomplish it..yes they didn't do anything invasive but it was still a selective editing it's like I lived over two years of my life as another person entirely it's more like who I was was scrapped and I started again until I got off the meds and this is where it gets interesting in the movie the stuff that they did to control his brain he somehow reversed it just by thinking and became himself again...that is what I feel like now that almost despite what was done instead of due to what was done I survived somehow...it's not fair I mean they all really tried to help me ..why do I feel so angry?
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