Fair enough-- I don't mean to ramble like that. Though, I posted that all as it relates to my asexual ideals, as it is the direct result of those feelings. I feel that if I can explain why I feel a certain way, and I am asking for advice/thoughts of others, it is better to explain why I feel the way I do. I am asking everyone's thoughts on the asexual idea, and not on everything else I posted-- everything else in there was simply an explanation as to why I may be feeling the way I do.