You're very kind and it is very appreciated. What I'm having the hardest time with is finding people whose voices happen to be people that they know in real life. Sure I hear plain voices too, but that isn't very often. I was taught by the voices i.e. my mother (at the time I really believed it was her) that it is a coming of age universal truth that once you reach a certain age you are able to communicate with your mind, pretty much telepathy but with guidelines. Many guidelines in fact there is a complete story for every question that I ask. It makes it very difficult to stay in the reality of it not being true. If I ignore it and try to be around people things will be said that lead me to think that it is true. I hear a lot about "calls, money, work and phones". It's all ways to refer to the act of using your mind to communicate. I wish I could find stories of people who mostly hear people they know so I would feel like I'm not alone in this, but so far all I find when I look for things like this are people who hear family or friends "sometimes, but not very often". My voices talk more about social status than anything and I hear from people in my community (in my head) that I never really talked to, but they have something to say about how I'm not "holding up" the right things. And I was taught holding up was what you were saying on a certain level in your head. There are three levels apparently. One level for social status (where you have to say certain things for people in order to stay at the status that you have.), one level for your thoughts, and one level just for talking. Then I started thinking 3 levels = conscious, sub conscious and non conscious. Non conscious would be the social level because you don't really spend time in your head dealing with that, you have to do that in person but it's what you would hear around you when you are in a social gathering. Sub conscious would be your thoughts. And conscious would be your talking that you do in your head to others. That's just an example of how in depth the voices will go to get me to believe that they are really the people that I hear. I just wonder if anyone else has this fear, but I can't seem to find anything,
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