G'day Pughead!

I agree with what Candybear has said.

I applaud your ability to dig deep and be honest enough to delve into the "pain" so to speak.

It is amazing what courage it takes to dig that deep and to be able to talk to someone about it.
It will take time and emotions will roll around in different directions for a while but, don't give up. Let them out. It is so worth it in the end...the freedom within, taking a load off, so to speak, then you can really focus on living life the way you want.

Stay true, take care, you are inspirational and you may not even realise that yet.