it can be so hard to fight these old messages that play in your mind over and over again. im bad ,not worth helping, im horrible ,and so on. these kind of messages can be so deeply ingrained it is hard to see through them.
you are so very helpful here and compassionate .I hardly think your T ,or anyone here would agree with you self assessment . I know it is hard but maybe you could try to maybe just let small amounts of positive thought through . like if you are feeling worthless .think of some of the things you say here that supports others. small things.