I have a MySpace account. I've always liked it because I can keep in touch with old friends from high school, cousins, my sister, new friends, and my cherished local bands. Well one day I received a request from a old friend from my runaway druggie days. Him and I were together for a year and a half, on the streets, doing drugs, and running away from home to be together. We did horrible things to the people involved in our lives back in them days, but we were deeply in love with each other. Just a pair of love drunk juveniles, modern day Bonnie and Clyde. On our last day together we were arrested together. Our agreement in the back of the squad car was to meet back up after we were released and to be together forever. I was sent to girl school, he was sent to boy school and we were split for a year before our releases. After my release I was carted off to West Virginia and we had never spoken till he found me on MySpace.

Now it's gotten confusing. He tells me we never split and that he still loves me and wants to be with me. He's still the same guy I was split from years ago, yet an adult. He's so much like me it's scary, he knows me still to this day.

The offer has arised for him to come sweep me away from here and taking my children with us. He really wants me.

I've fought this with myself for along time now. I've cussed him out telling him to leave me alone, yet I keep coming back to him. Maybe I am lonely?

It's so hard, this teetering decision. I love my husband..I love him I love him, I'd never imagine taking his children from him, he cherishes them more then himself. Yet, I want my old friend as well. He's so gorgeous...

Lust, love, betrayal, heart ache, selfishness....this is all consuming me. I sometimes wish I could just make it all go away.

I need advice.