I saw two Ts at one point.

When I first moved to the city I am currently living in (Jan 2013), I didn't have insurance so I went to a free counseling center through a church. I was seeing an graduate student intern. WE totally clicked...and I felt so safe and comfortable talking to her and opening up to her. However, I felt like my issues were too big...PTSD, MDD, GAD, EDNOS...

In March 2013, I found out that I had insurance...so I started looking for T's that had more experience that took my insurance. My goal was to transition to someone who had experience with sexual trauma and PTSD.

It took me about 4 months before I found out what my copay was going to be. So that puts me into June/July...so I had been seeing T for 6-7 months and had a wonderful bond/trust with her. But I knew she was leaving in December because she was graduating. I didn't want to leave her.

So I had been seeing L for 3-4 months. I was building a good therapeutic relationship with her. And I knew she was better qualified. And I knew I would need someone else starting in 2014.

I was afraid to tell one about the other. Especially because I knew someone who had seen L before and when she heard she had another counselor and L got really upset with her -- even though it was a marriage counselor, not an individual. So...I was afraid to let her know.

Sometimes I forgot who I had said what to, so I was like, "I can't remember if I told you this...but..."

It was hard. I would have preferred seeing just one, but at the same time it was good bc I had two appointments a week...sometimes three. L only VERY rarely will do two appts a week.