So...I did some things last night that I kinda regret...and left me feeling...ashamed, guilty...and violated -- though that is a reaction to my past trauma, not to the situation itself.

I felt really overwhelmed with everything last night, and I ended up engaging in some self-destructive behavior...which I am finding I am wanting to do more...

I have an appointment for Friday...not sure she would even have anything else open...wondering if I should try to go in earlier...

suggestions?