Unfortunately my insurance sucks and therefore would have to pay any doctor's visits completely out of pocket, hence why we didn't go to the emergency room the night of the incident.

Smmath--as for why, well it's complicated. My girlfriend is diagnosed as Bipolar, myself as Borderline, and together we get into some tough situations from time to time. We feed off each other's negative thinking. This particular night, she was drunk and very upset. We talked a lot about a suicide pact type of situation. It was a dramatic night. At one point I had to wrestle some blades and a knife away from her, afraid she was about to do something drastic. Finally she had gotten the knife back and in a fit of fear that she was about to do something very bad, I tried to stop her. I grabbed a very sharp blade of the ground and tried to distract her I guess, I told her I was about to cut myself if she was about to the same but she was completely unaware of what I was doing, it happened very quickly. I was sitting kind of cross-legged and swiped the blade quickly across my right ankle and all of a sudden it was very clear that the cut was extremely deep and I freaked out shouting "Look look what I did! Oh no oh no I'm gonna die help help."

I think about it all now as the most Borderline thing I could have done, manipulating her to pay attention to me by self-injuring. I needed at least 10 stitches but I wouldn't go to the hospital and therefore we made do with steri-strips and bandages. It's been about 3 weeks and it's healing well except for what I've mentioned in my original post.

My girlfriend and I used to have a pact that neither of us would SI, she wouldn't and I wouldn't. It worked sometimes, but I broke the pact a few times and so did she. But at least she didn't threaten to leave me if I broke the pact, like in past relationships with people who had no knowledge of SI would threaten to break up with me if I were to cut.