So. I just left a session in which it was the first time we talked about some deep rooted past experiences that she knew about but were off topic for discussion. Anyways for some dumb reason i decided to open the discussion and T hopped right on it. There was no turning back really but she gave me the choice to stop multiple times. She has already known the whole time about the secrets - but i have never told them to anyone in my life ever so she knew just what to ask from the first question. But i kept freaking going because i'm insane like that. I felt almost entirely emotionless. Its like my body was numb and my emotions were void. She asked me to push past that void as we both know its my coping mechanism. Its not her fault at all she went veeery slow and it was all in my control and i have this bad habit of just going all in sometimes because if i don't i know i wont allow myself to even broach the subject. Finally i was just done w the conversation and we ended it. But now I'm so angry and cant figure out where to place the anger. I have no idea why im angry but i know it is probably just feelings that are trying to surface now from those experiences. I also feel robbed of a session because i chose to do the hard work instead if the loving fun light work and have no idea what that is about. What the heck is going on??? Is this common when you first open up?