Wow, I think about this a lot, too. Yes, yes and yes. I think it fuels self-hatred. I try not to think about it, which leads to intrusive thought. spin-cycle

I also believe something good can come from badness, which is not my way of finding the silver lining in this. There simply isn't one. But it also doesn't mean you're destined to repeat what happened.

If a wormy larva can transform into a butterfly, there is hope for us. U didn't choose whose blood is in ur veins, a horrible accident to be born into the family. Same here.
It doesn't mean, though, that you can't be a separate individual, regardless.

Good luck 2 U, I'm glad you posted.

~E