I am so sorry to hear that Rivrboat I cant imagine what that must feel like, to be let down by the one person you really should be able to rely on for understanding and support.

I'm glad to see I am not the only one facing this dilemma thou .... It does peeve me that I cant seem to find many friends who truly understand what its like and my god but there is such a huge stigma still attached to mental health issues in this country.
I have found that I actually connect better with people from the UK where I lived for 20 years because they are much more open minded and a lot less repressed !

Museum, I def hear what you are saying but I struggle to understand the people who dont open up, as part of my 'illness' I like to fix people, I want them to open up to me so I can help them, but I realise that this is my 'bag' so to speak and not theirs. I can't fix everyone and not everyone wants to open up.

I'm hoping by the time I come out the end of this getting the right meds and treatment hell I will be much happier with myself and find it far easier to cope with when to speak and when not to and when not to take things personally.