You might have a point. I do know at one point i just felt totally disconnected from T like I wasn't worth her compassion. I still don't. Perhaps I feel like things are ruined because I told her. I know she already knew but its so much more real when its vocalized. She asked me the first question and it was like I threw her a million miles away - we were no longer what we had but complete strangers. I felt like I was sitting naked in front of her.