I am a 32 year male living at home with my step dad and mom.My step sister lives with us and I have fell in love with her every since last march or april and I cannot get her out of my head.My mom and step dad found out about after I gave her a note telling how I feel about her.She is 16 years old.I will be 33 in may and she will be 17 in Sept. It is really hard for me to stop feeling this way and I really hate myself for it.She has a boyfriend and few days ago she was talking about him and I told her that I wasn't listening.I really don't want to listen about there relationship cause it is like my heart is being ripped apart.I don't go anywhere to meet people or anything.I am pretty jealous of her boyfriend and it really made me mad when she told me that she got almost got written up for PDA with her boyfriend.I didn't say anything to her after that.I didn't want to hurt her feeling or anything. I have reacted not that great sometimes when she mentions him without thinking. I just hurt. They have recently been making out I guess.I really don't know what to do about this.I really care about her and I have never felt this way about anyone before.I don't think I will ever get a wife or girlfriend cause I think I am fat and ugly.I weight 306 lbs.I am currently trying to lose weight with doing focus t25 riding the stationary bike and weight lifting.I dont know if I just annoy her or not.We talk sometimes for 5 hours straight.She says she likes talking to me but I think she only likes me as a brother and I wouldn't go after her till she is at least 18 at the earliest.I really would like any nice imput about this.I really don't know what to do about it.I have great intentions and I don't want to ever hurt her or doing anything bad like kiss her or anything cause that probably would creep her out and I shouldn't do that to a 16 year old girl.I really have a hurge heart.Should I just annoy her and stop talking to her as we sometimes cut up and laugh and talk.I don't have anyone else to talk to and it is really hard to just stop talking to her.I have said before that I would just stop talking to her but then she starts talking and shatters the wall I built up.I did'nt know where else to talk about this so I am talking about here.I hope this don't offend anyone.I