Just because I don't like to call it disorder doesn't mean, mine **** is not real. Freezing up. Paranoia. Inability to discuss or even think straight of some issues. Nightmares...

it doesn't have to be "disorder" for it to be "real".

I am not downplaying anything. On contrary. I just don't think being affected even in bad way makes you "disordered". That is all. I can take this stuff seriously without insisting it!s a "disorder".

But nice for you "knowing". I wish I knew. I would probably make so much easier to put "feelings" in words and not let them... mess up with me.

But I believe one can get over trauma. Many in history did and lived great lifes and done great things. If they did, I can overcome my much lesser issues, for sure.