Welcome to the group. So glad yr reaching out for help. To me it too sounds like mixed episode. I'm bipolar 2 with bpd, anxiety, ptsd and adhd. I find meds to be my best friend. I know that sounds weird but they help me that much. Yr living situation would be very hard to deal with. It's important to have supportive people around you. If yr gma Doesnt understand then maybe she could benefit from reading up about it. As you know mental illness doesnt allow us to pick ourselves up by our boot straps. It's a Chemical imbalance that's out of our control. But we can work trying tocontrol negative feelings. There are tools to help us like therapy and dbt skills that are wonderful at helping us get into wise mind and distress tolerance. You sound like you've been dealing with allot of emotional abuse. That can really hurt our growth. Please be easy on yrself. Feel free to private msg me if you want a friend who will listen. Hugs

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