Its been two years for me, but the urge is still there. What I hate is people thinking that cutting is just a way to get attention. 99% of the time, I never told anyone.

There must be different kinds of SI. I know that when I used to cut, and they were deep down into muscle cuts, it didn't really hurt. I would just sew them up myself without any lidocaine and it didn't bother me.

Last month, I looked up SI to see what others had done. There were people who had given themselves compound fractures of the lower leg with hammers. They must not feel pain during that instant.

You are right about a wound being visible. The problem is, once its known that you have done it yourself, say in an emergency room, it gets labled as a mental illness and you are right back where you started from.

Be careful. Besides being addictive, its so easy to have something go wrong. In a way, cutting gives you control, but it can easily turn into an infection that you have no control over. Losing a limb for a week's peace is a pretty high price. Please be careful.

Sam2