I feel like life is pretty much made of intersecting circles. You never fully fit in with something because your circles don't 100% overlap. But you can share different things with different people and together it makes you whole. I often feel like the odd one out in many social situations. One time I went to a club party and literally sat in the corner and sipped sprite the entire time. It was awful. But then an acquaintance of mine dragged me into the dance floor and got me to have fun a little. I didn't have a great time but a little part of me fit in with them at the moment--a slight overlap. Other times, I'm more centered and am helping drag other people into the circle. There are very rare times that we feel truly understood and like we belong but we are all built with similar parts and you can find people who share a lot of your interests and style of humor and all sorts of other things. To be honest, it's kind of awesome that everyone is so different and diverse because it means you can connect with so many people. The important part is to just keep trying. You and I are still looking for our niche. It's hard to find but in the end, very worth it.
Like Sam2 said though. Take care not to look only at dark spots of humanity--they are ugly and filled with hatred. People do good things everyday. In fact, today as I was carrying my groceries in, someone went out of their way to hold the door open for me. Look for the little things. There is light and goodness everywhere in this world, you just have to open your eyes to it.
But yes, I often feel like I don't belong. But I can't help but hope. Don't give up!
Best of luck!
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