Hey there, I know I'm kinda late, but wanted to chime in. Back in December, I disclosed details of some of the past, though I hadn't planned on it. We had talked about something else the week before, and it all kinda just spilled in detail into a journal to her. I ended up reading it all to her a few days later (went in for an early session because it was too much to handle for a whole other week). I was really conflicted about telling her. They were things NO ONE had ever heard before, and it was horribly vulnerable. But afterwards it all felt better. It took a few days to get there, but somehow the act of reading it all out to her relieved some of the internal pressure. I'm not quite sure how I got through those days that were torture. There was a lot more writing (addressed to her, but never handed over), and a lot of sh urges, but then it just left one day. I think maybe her telling me it wasn't my fault kinda sunk in. She didn't treat me like a freak or a demon... Maybe that was what made the biggest difference: she remained supportive even after that session. She still is, and that's helpful when the self-doubt and self-loathing get loud...
I'm glad you were able to share with your T, but I'm sorry it's causing so much turmoil in the aftermath. I hope you can find a way through it without the sh...