Saw my pdoc today, and making some med changes. Dropping strattera and increasing wellbutrin. Also maybe cut out the seroquel. So it's good, I'm going to be on less overall, but med changes are always hard because I don't know what to expect. I found out that it's going to be harder to get to my medical appointments without work finding out they are for mental health, so that's stressing me out. I felt like crying this morning at work, but I kept it together. Now it's just low grade depression that never seems to end. It feels like I change meds every time I see my pdoc, but it never seems to make a difference. She disagreed with that, and said that I am much better now, which is true overall, but I'm still depressed. It's getting harder to fake being OK around work, and I don't want to burden friends or family with worrying about me. I'm so sick of feeling this way.