I'm not convinced there's a place for me in this world either. I find every time I think I might get/have gotten something "positive" it's ripped away or it was a lie to begin with. I almost feel like I'll never find something that feels right and that I'll always be adrift in this sea of depression. My dad told me that it's my fault for having a negative mindset or something but that's just really frustrating. Yea it's my fault I think about suicide all the time. Thanks. That's ****ing helpful.