Hi Sunrise, great ideas.
I've been trying for a year +
I see her tuesday and will discuss with her why it may not be working for me. Also, the part about asking for evidence that it is, is great advice, so thanks I am going to do that as well. because maybe I'm wrong and it is working eh?

I have some hints as to why. Just as negative talk was given to me and the sources identified, positive things were also given (in a negative way) by my abuser and trust and perception skewed in that regard. So when I "tell" myself those nice things, I've heard them from nasty sources and I think this is why it may be hindering me. I'm going to discuss that with her as well. Although that will lead to some personal stuff I wasn't ready for.....so we'll see.

Yea, about the eclectic. for sure. what the eff does that MEAN to me???

(((Sunrise, thank you)))