I have been on new meds for about a month now. Took away abilify and added Lamictal also added Klonopin for anxiety. They have really elevated my mood. Mood wise I am much much better. I still have 0 energy, 0 motivation, sleep messed up although getting better, and social anxiety.

The thing is a few days of feeling better mood wise and I feel totally guilty that I am not acting like a "normal" person. Why am I not working, why am I not exercising, why am I not showering. I should have a job. I should not sleep so much. and on and on. It is like somehow I feel there was never anything wrong so why is my life so messed up. How did I ever let things get so bad when there is nothing wrong with me. Like I can't even acknowledge what I have been through the last two years. I cannot trust my thinking. Baby steps. Maybe since my mood has lifted I can do a couple of things today and not have to fix my whole life in one fell swoop.