Yr right n it is such a hard balance. It actually makes me feel hopeless about my future. I constantly compare my life with others. They seem not to know how good they have it. I wish
I had more balanced seritonin levels but I need to accept my reality. Yr right it's a very hard trade it. I'm having back surgery today hoping it won't trigger an episode with all the emotions. My bff is taking me and staying overnight with me. She too is mentally ill and understands my rollar coaster of cycles. Thank God for having such a special friend. She is the only one I trust besides my bf.

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