I read this thread over and over again for the simple reason of understanding of what is right and wrong. Being in sports all my life, I was taught to obey your elders/coach, I don't question their actions. It's just part of the sport or strategy of the game. I've been doing this for about 30 years and with the most experience, I am the best one on the team, so for me to quit isn't going to be easy because it's a team sport. I am held to higher standards and have to set a good example for all. I am a private person and don't like to be in the spotlight, I just do it because I love the sport...at least I used to.

I am getting a lot out of this forum and I cannot THANK all of you for reading and helping me in my quest for happiness.